semi-yay

so i know i've gotten better--but "better" doesn't mean that i feel anything close to good. i just feel like shit.

but the best news is--I GOT MY PATAGONIA PURCHASES on friday afternoon! yay! it was expected to be delivered monday--so it coming on friday was great. the jacket is awesome. lovvvvvvvve it. the color is awesome. it will be my summer jacket. the pants and skirt are a pretty unique and interesting take on capris/skirts. i like it.

on my way home from jersey last friday...i stopped by the carwash place a block from home and got my car officially washed. i had so much crap inside my actual car that i just told them to bypass the vacuuming. i know my car was filthy--after such a messy winter--but i wasn't too impressed with the wash/hand wipe job. i mean, my baby LOOKS great even from close up--all bright and shiny and clean looking--but when you go over it with a fine tooth comb--there was some black grease spots here and there that they didn't wipe off which i later did, and they just didn't do such a thorough job--but as i only payed $5.25 i guess i shouldn't complain overly much. but i swear they did a rather thorough job on all the cars before me! i was watching. they were probably told i only wanted a wash/wax and to not bother expending a ton of energy on a car that isn't making them much money. such foresight. i ended up cleaning up the entire inside afterwards (wiping the dash, vacuuming, etc.) so my baby has been happily pampered.

"exhaustion"

so i was diagnosed with walking pneumonia brought on by "exhaustion" and am on meds and was told to "take it easy" for a few days.

which is impossible of course since this is my jersey week. then i have plans this weekend (BBQ at mae's on saturday) and the hamptons the beginning of next week. i'll rest after i get back from there--and hope that i get better by then!

i'm tired. i think i will sleep early-ish tonight. i can certainly use it. i can most definitely use it!

i just hate the phlegm. i swear to god i am THE GROSSEST sick person anyone could ever meet. no joke. i really mean it. my family will attest to it, i'm sure. i'm not the kind of sick person that engenders "awww, poor thing." i'm the kind that gets the outright looks of disgust or, if the person is remotely polite, the crinkling of the nose.

but everyone shudders and walks a wide berth around me.

and i can't blame them. i just can't blame them. i'd give myself the disgusted look--and often do when i'm sick.

i can't wait for my clothes to come from patagonia!

there's been a lull in the movie industry for me since i saw slumdog millionairre. but there are a couple of movies i want to see (monsters vs aliens and i love you man) and then--the summer movie blockbuster season--TONS of movies i'm dying to see then. so yay!

phlegmy nightmares

so it continues. after taking the train into manhattan for 45 minutes and waiting for nearly 3 hours--the nurse came and took my temperature, etc.etc. for about 4 minutes and then, i saw the doctor for 3 minutes--and that might have been stretching it.

i'm happy to say it ISN'T walking pneumonia. however. it is a nasty viral infection which he can't prescribe anything for. the doctor graciously told me that this sort of thing lasts approximately 2 weeks and there isn't really anything to do but to ride it out. DAMN IT. anything he would have told me to use--i can't use anyways because i'm allergic to most drugs. so yay. he said just try to be as comfortable as possible and keep taking whatever it is i'm taking that makes me feel better.

times i wish i was taking heroin and got caught. "but the doctor told me to take whatever makes me feel good officer!"

anyhow. 7 more days of this? that means i get to suffer with this while i'm in vermonttttttt. damn it. i hope at least the worst of the phlegm will be gone by then...my coworkers do not need to see me spitting phlegm into tissue paper.

am i being too graphic and gross?

beautiful days...

and i am sick. sick. sick. sick.

which really sucks. i am coughing up phlegm and i feel very bad for the people around me. they try to hide their looks of disgust and horror with sympathy--but it doesn't quite come out properly--and i can't blame them.

i even disgust me!

when i get sick--i get SICK. and so, tomorrow, after doing some work or before doing some work, i will go to the nearest walk-in clinic that i have found, which is actually about a 45 minute train ride away--and seek out some meds. no doubt it will probably be azithromycin or the like again because--no doubt, i have walking pneumonia. again.

it never fails--if i nap? i get sick. this theory has not failed yet. and yet--i couldn't help myself--i had to nap after my thanksgiving day/black friday event. so the laptop isn't going to just cost me $399.99 and tax. it will end up costing me probably $50 more as well.

still worth it i suppose.

except that i just came back from 3 days in the hamptons, plus i have 3 days next week in burlington, vermont (which if i'm not sick--should be REALLY FUN) and then new jersey again before calling it good for the rest of the year on the 18th!

i might visit the pacific northwest for a week--but considering my lack of planning...we'll see.