ugh...

it's 9:3o pm on a friday night--and i am still working. i didn't actually get to take care of "office stuff" so i get to do it now--reaping the rewards of a WAY TOO BUSY MONTH. i went to east setauket and the hamptons (both on long island) on thursday--slept there, then went to white plains (upstate new york) today and am back home for the weekend.

then on monday i head to morristown, new jersey for training until wednesday, sleep on my floor for a night--then on thursday--catch a flight to la for labor day weekend and some MUCH NEEDED rest.

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there is mass family drama at the moment and i feel very far removed from it--meaning--just too far to do much good--helpless and trite. it's hard being so far away and not being able to be there for the ones you love. how do you help when you are across the country in a different time zone? when you can't go there to defend them yourself? how do you make that difference without sounding trite? for that matter, how do you even make that difference being so far away? i don't know. i just don't know how to bridge the gap.

all these kids (by "these kids" i mean my nieces and nephews) are growing up so fast and i am missing so much of it now. there's so much an aunt can do that parents can't do. i love being the one they want to play with cause "auntie jenny" is so fun. it helps i suppose that i really am a big kid at heart. it's not tough to play with the kids when you enjoy the stuff they do still. i don't really know anyother way to be. i still love the kid stuff that i always have--still prefer disneyland to vegas and medieval times to an expensive night out in the hamptons. there are some things that will never change about me.

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my older brother has finally proposed to his longtime girlfriend--of 12 years or so i believe. we've always called her our sister-in-law anyways--but it's nice that it's finally official. so congratulations to the two of them and let's hope that the wedding doesn't take another 10 years or so to occur!